Just got home from school. Saw you there and I can't help stealing glances at you. There's just something about you that's so irresistible, with your powerful features, you look so big and strong to me. I like big guys:D Sometimes, I wonder what your abs look like? Do you even have a tight six-pack? Or are you just flabby? Coz I can't tell when you're wearing so many clothes all the time. How I wish I'd been to our class outing 2 years ago so I can your body in all its glory. *sighs* What a big mistake of me not to go! I'm gonna make sure that we have a class outing this year and I'll make sure that we have it in your resort so that Slutty Tramp Whore (yes, an additional name that truly matches what she is!) can't go coz your mom's most likely to be there and they aren't exactly best of friends *evil laugh*
I wonder when we'll get to spend a moment together. A genuine moment, just the two of us...(God, if you're listening, hear my wish). It's really hard to keep in inside. I just want to tell someone, even just one person, so badly but I know I can't, I won't...because of my pride. And that's why I'm hurting inside...alone...so Buddyboy, please, hear me. Coz I don't wanna suffer anymore. Take away the suffering. I can be your friend too, hopefully, more than that but we all know that the best relationships also has to have great friendships as foundations.
Just so you know, I'm still here. If you need anything, you can count on me. I know your mom does. I'm still trying to look for a good message to text her, ass-kissing style. I'll Google it later.
I know I have so many problems right now, but in my fantasies, I imagine hitting two birds with one stone. What if you and I would split up the cost of a condo (preferably Serendra or Newport City) and live together....:) I know it's almost impossible but it always makes me smile when I think about it. Your parents like me for you anyway and my parents would be happy I chose a financially stable, smart, handsome, career-driven, and also an only child husband (who people will think we're super compatible for each other coz we understand each other growing up with no siblings).
I have so many dreams and even when I was young, I imagined that I would end up marrying you. I just never thought then (when I will be graduating elementary) that in the future (when I will graduate high school) that I would have the same dreams that you will end up with me...I guess that's one proof that I never stopped loving you after all these years.
I wonder what you think of me? Do you think of me as much as I think of you? I've changed a lot you know...I'm not the same person as I was a few years back. I'm also a lot more mature and at the same time fun and open to others so I hope you can see this. Coz not only do I want to learn more about you, I want you to learn more about me too.
I am and will always be here for you. @
dream Dad aka Buddyboy's Dad, I will always love and care your son, no matter what. He's my first love and I don't think I will ever forget him. He has changed me in ways that I will never be the same again. RIP Dream Dad...it has caused me great grief to see you go so early and in such a violent way. I miss you. I may not be able to know more about you that much but at least now, you will be able to know more about me. I can talk to you now. You will see me in the most honest way (it's not like I can hide anything from you). I hope that you didn't regret choosing me for your son...and I will strive hard to keep it that way.